goodbye.

I'm sorry.

a picture's worth a thousand words.

'Cause sometimes you feel tired,
feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.



"she said with a smile
that screams of tears and not another word
gunna spend my nights either sleepless or
dreaming about you
she said
who wants a life of lost adolescense
thats filled with regrets and anti-depressants?"



"And we'll love again, we'll laugh again.
We'll cry again and we'll dance again.
And it's better off this way,
So much better off this way"


"should've done something but I've done it enough,
by the way your hands were shaking,
rather waste some time with you.
should've said something but I've said it enough,
by the way my words were faded,
rather waste some time with you."

I can't breathe, I can't think, I can't sleep.
I'm completely suffocated.
You'll look at me like I'm all smiles and sunshine,
but really, you've got it all wrong.
I'm marvelous at playing pretend...

Emma.

I miss her, more than anyone would believe.

and you're still breathing.

if you want to say goodbye to everything, I could say goodbye too.

sufficate.

I've never been so scared in my whole life.
Spent the last 24+ hours sobbing my heart out.



I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like.

how many questions.

sometimes i wonder,
how many see the world with colour, how many see the brightness, how many actually open their eyes and how many feel it? how many see the world through black and white and how many see things for what they really are? how many widen their eyes and how many close them? how many enjoy the simplicity and how many thrive from complications?
how many choose to live within reality and how many choose to live in a state of mind? would you rather live inside a dull, lifeless world or a world full of adventure?

i see the world with colour through black and white opened eyes, i see the world for what it really is, i love the simplicity however i choose not to live within reality. i'd much prefer a state of mind with continuous adventure and happiness.

amazement.

routine starts to take place. simplicity & smiles.
you can still continue to hurt me, and for some reason,
i'd let you.
that was until it happened.
I haven't learnt how to walk but I know how to run.

You'll never figure me out but I'm a sucker for someone that tries.
I'm not the person you think I am 'cause I don't even know who I am.
Things used to be different, used to trust easily, smile and always let anyone in.
Now I'm always scared something's about to go wrong.
Always watching people, observing there movements and interactions.

"fuck off" "fuck on"
(:
seriously, (:


and no sence is made.

flowers.

me: "happy birthday Mark"
mark: "do I get a birthday kiss?"
me: "ahaha no, you didn't give me a flower"
both: "-laughs-"

It's funny how something so small, so simple and so unexpected can make you feel so happy.

You can feel the happiness flowing through your veins.

fond.

quiet fond of rad kids, they make me lol.
new year, new start, new everything.